Talking It Out...and Surprises

It was a bad day for me yesterday. I fully take ownership of that. I don't know what happened but late morning at work, anxiety took over. I started thinking bad, horrible things. "What if it's worse than they thought?". "I dont want to die". "I dont want to let people at my support group down".

After work, I met with my support group leader at the Gathering Place. She is an amazing person to speak with. Always has a level head. No agenda. Doesn't force her opinion. She listens, engages and then allows you to make YOUR decision. It takes an incredibly special person to do her job. I can not imagine. After speaking with her, I left with a sense of peace. The support group is not only for THEM but it's for ME as well. And I need to not worry about what their reaction. I have been there for them for years now it's time for them to be there for me.

So that was one monkey off of my back. After the meeting, I met Kim up at, you guessed it, Gunselmans for a drink or two. As we were sitting there talking, Sarah, my neighbor and bartender, received a phone call from someone. She proceeded to walk over to me and explain to me that "someone" was picking my tab up. After trying to figure out who, I realized it was someone from one of the Browns message boards, The Orange & Brown Report. Although many of these people I have NEVER met face to face, many of them I have shared dialogue with on the boards discussing or arguing about Cleveland Browns football. To my amazement, this nice guy, calling from Connecticut, paid for my beers and then some. I only spent $6 so I have some brewskis coming to me when I go back :)

Complete shock. I mean how nice is that?????? Then I get home and I have several emails on theobr.com, sending me well wishes and offers of donations for the Chinese Raffle. One of which was CRAZY. I dont want to say anything yet until it pans out, but if you come to the fundraiser you might have a chance to win something very special for you or your lady friend. Diamonds are a girls best friend, right?

So although my day started out shitty, it ended me being completely just in shock of how complete strangers can brighten your day in the blink of an eye.

As I left the Gathering Place, my group leader handed me this:



She said she made it awhile ago......and wanted me to have it.

Kicks its ass I will....completely kick its fucking ass.


XOXO
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